Back With a Bang

Crap. Lots of shenaningans have kept me away. Wedding planning. A new job. A new house. An addiction to thrifting. Hours of TBS (have I mentioned the fact that I’m marrying the real Sheldon Cooper, flip fold and all?)

So how about a video to get things started again?

That was this morning. A group of us got up at the crack of dawn to watch quite possibly the coolest thing to happen in College Station since No Doubt wrote their name on a bathroom wall 20 years ago. There wasn’t much of a warning as to when exactly the building would implode, so we were all caught off guard. Hence the giggles.

Things in life are steady now, which I appreciate immensely. They’re hectic, but I can handle hectic.

Let’s meet again here soon, shall we? For now, listen to this awesome cover of “Call Me Maybe” by Ben Howard. Enjoy.

Push

I’ve got some big decisions that have been weighing heavy on me lately, and as a result I have had a lot of nervous energy over the last month or so that I couldn’t (or didn’t really want to) put into words. Something as wonderful as planning a wedding can be very stressful. Visions and ideas and dreams evolve into the reality of money, distance and logistics. How can I choose a date that is meaningful that will have good weather in a place that will be convenient for everyone involved and conducive to fun? How can I choose a city when home has been such an evolving concept over the last few years? I can barely pick of head of bok choy at the grocery store, so how can I decide on the day and place of this most important day in our relationship? (Of course, it’s a mutual decision, but that doesn’t change the fact that it’s difficult.)

Sometimes I think if I stand still long enough things will just happen. I’ll get a push in the right direction. I’ll become a leaf in the wind, and where I land isn’t up to me. But that’s not how life works. Sure, you’re not in control of everything, but sometimes you are in control, and you damn well better take the reigns because you’re the best person for the job. That can be a tough pill to swallow, a lot of responsibility.

The funny thing about it all is that we could get married at a WalMart and still be thrilled because both of us know it’s not about the place or the date or the dress. The magazines and the blogs may all show nice pictures of rings and flowers and twinkly lights, but all of those things aren’t what make a marriage. I have to keep that in perspective.

So with that said, I’m going to resolve to quit making excuses for not blogging, not picking a place, and not trusting myself like I should. I’ve got the reigns, and I’ve got an amazing man beside me.

Dad

Today I thought I would post in honor of my dad. Fathers and daughters have a very special bond, and I count myself one of those lucky few who considers her father one of her closest friends.

The father-daughter bond starts to form in the early moments of a daughter’s life when she realizes–even in her most colicky moments–that she is being held by a person she can trust. Here is a person who will love her when she screams like a banshee and smells like baby poop.

It continues to grow as he teaches her things like sharing and how to ride a bike and why boys never call when they say they will and the meaning of life (that’s a tough one, but he always makes the answer seem so easy).

And the bond tightens with each winter he takes her sledding and each summer he shows her how to ride the waves.

It blossoms more as he shows her how to care for animals and how to appreciate nature (Dad always knows the best rocks under which to find the salamanders).

And Dad always loves her no matter what. Their bond doesn’t buckle from the pressure of her first dates with boys he doesn’t wholly approve of or from driving lessons where she nearly drives his car into a pole.

He stands beside her after graduations. He sits patiently through countless recitals (many of which involve the recorder, which isn’t even a real instrument). He wipes away her tears after break-ups and gives her hope that all men aren’t awful. He carries her over-abundant things during move after move (each one, he swears, will be the last he helps with). He tells her she’s beautiful even when she feels ugly. He listens to her fears and doubts and tells her to be positive and strong because he believes in her, and she should believe in herself, too.

And for that she is eternally grateful.