It’s weird how looking at old pictures can remind you of things you didn’t realize you’d forgotten. I can almost hear my brothers’ voices when they were kids when I look at these photos.
I remember the day Colin and I went horseback-riding. I don’t remember where we were, but I remember going. I remember my mom telling him to hold on to me and keep me safe.

I remember the necklace with the plastic hearts on stretchy elastic. I remember the couch in my living room… Oh wait, we still have that couch.
(I think I intentionally repressed the memory of those acid-washed cargo jeans, though. Wow.)

I didn’t get to spend a lot of time with my brothers when we were kids, but I always looked forward to seeing them. The house felt fuller when they were around, more like it was supposed to. When my mom and I would pick the boys up from their mom’s house for Wednesday night dinners, I loved hiding in the back seat of the van to try to scare them. It never got old, and they were never surprised.
I remember dinners where Graham would say he didn’t like mushrooms or tomatoes anymore, and before even trying one, I decided that neither did I.
I remember Colin’s massive cassette tape collection and how he used to blast Gloria Estefan on his boom box.
I remember Graham used to “slam dunk” me into the couch or onto the floor. And I used to retort “I’m gonna bite you” when he’d yell at me to “quit being a pill.”
All these memories from two photos of “horseback riding.” I’m pretty lucky to have such great big brothers who protected me and played with me — even if I really was a pill sometimes.